When I first heard about Raoul Moat running around shooting people, I must say I didn’t really know what was going on or take that much interest. I had my own stuff going on and I was absorbed in that. A friend of mine, Sherry, called me up and we started talking about it. She mentioned that there was talk of him having asked for psychiatric help and not getting it. I asked her to send me any links and here they are, have a look and see what you think. http://www.itv.com/news/exclusive-moats-anger25784/
Slowly information filtered through and someone mentioned a bit more to me. I said I felt sorry for Moat, that he must be in a lot of pain to be doing what he was doing and what is being done to help him and those around him? Not a lot by all accounts. The more awareness that is being raised about the lack of facilities for people with psychiatric, mental health isues, the better. The Raoul Moat story highlights what can happen when someone is not taken seriously. It is a tragic loss for everyone. I found this article very insightful http://news.uk.msn.com/uk/articles.aspx?cp-documentid=154126009
Little did I know the extent of his psychological problems and that he had been asking for help for a long time and not getting it. He has been described as aggressive and in a way it is understandable. I am not for one moment saying what he did was right, far from it, he clearly lost the plot. However, I do want to respond to the distress suffered by so many people at the lack of support available when in dia need. How many people do loose the plot under such extreme stress and it is at high cost to themselves, their families and society. People can get so lost and so far gone they cannot see a way out and something just snaps.
I have also come across a website of a book by James Bartholomew who has written about this same subject, commenting on the fact that Raoul Moats last words were ‘I’ve not got a Dad, no-one cares about me’. Here Bartholomew raises the question that Moat was abandoned by his father and then his mother met and married another man, leaving him alone and feeling unwanted. I will be writing more about this subject for myself in a later blog, it is a subject very close to my heart.
I have been out of re-hab now since the 19th April. Have been to see a psychiatrist who assessed me, then told me to come back a month later with no offer of support in the meantime, then telling me there is a community psychiatric nurse who can help me at which I freaked out, I had had one of them before 14 years ago and know they cannot help with assessing me, giving me therapy and moving me forward in that area. I was then offered lithium incase I had borderline personality disorder or bi-polar……I am still waiting for help. I was told I was aggressive, I was asked to calm down, I was scared and there were no answers for me……….I then went to see my doctor who suggested I tried anti-depressants to see if there is infact a chemical inbalance in my brain, so I am trying them. I feel wierd, tired, distant, a bit zoned out..apparently it takes a while to kick in, and I am still waiting to see what the community mental health team are going to do. I have been referred to a Psychologist, with only one in the area, there is a big waiting list, in the meantime, I wait.
There are hundreds of people out there who are being left to rot, drugged up to the eye balls with no way of getting help. I would be one of them if it had not been for some help from a friend so I can get to see someone. I was desperate and I needed help.
In the next few months I will be starting a series of interviews to highlight this exact problem, what can be done. It isn’t ok scapegoating people saying they are aggressive. When people need help and cannot get it, ask for it, knowing there is a problem, it is sometimes little wonder they feel frustrated. I know I felt very scared indeed.