I have been prompted to write today for several reasons. One because I miss it and have now committed myself to write one day of the weekend, I have to for myself, it is so good for my soul to connect with the creative part of me. Secondly because of a song I put onto my Facebook and when my friend Matt saw it he suggested I put it on here. When we discussed it, it became apparent how poignant it is to my story, no wonder I love it so much. It sends tingles down my spine and brings tears to my eyes when I listen to Adele singing ‘Someone like you’
I have also been following Paulo Coelho recently and a line that came up from him on Facebook last week was ‘Don’t allow your wounds to transform you into someone you are not’. This cut to the quick with me, together with this song, it reminds me that there is healing to be done and that I have allowed my wounds to transform me into someone I am not, which I feel very sad about but I am also grateful that I am able to realise this and change before it is too late. The grief that has come with the decisions I made a long time ago, is finally being addressed, I now have people around me who are able to hold me as I face it. Thank you.
It has been a long time since I have written here and I have really missed it. I have been so busy trying to sort other things out to give myself time to write here, and it has taken me away from my absolute love, writing, somehow it connects me with me and in these moments I feel so at one it is a beautiful feeling and one that I need and want to tend to more.
I have been getting on with the book, the first three chapters, which are coming along nicely. I am very blessed to have two amazing people helping me, one with the basic actual editing and support and another who is a writer himself and who gives me an overview and is helping prepare the chapters to send to Agents, so things are moving forward, fingers crossed.
I have also been busy trying to organise my time between setting up a Social Enterprise for Addicts in recovery entitled Addicts4Addicts -this will help with more support for those struggling and in need, which comes from my journey; whilst taking care of my own recovery and mental health, and writing. It is a juggle, but I am getting there, some days are better than others, of course.
Thanks to everyone who is following me and for your comments, please do keep coming back, I am sorry I have not been more attentive for some time.