Inside I Scream

I used to write poetry a lot, when words just were not enough, somehow it helped. I want to share with you a poem I wrote in June 2003, when I was desperate for my mother’s love and I suddenly realised, she couldn’t give me what I needed, she never could.  I was facing one of the toughest times in my life and this is one of the poems I wrote.

Inside I Scream

If you would have held me,

For just a while,

Long enough for me to smile.

But you couldn’t hold me as I screamed,

So desperate, inside of me.

I just needed to sit a while,

Long enough for me to smile,

But no, inside I scream.

Inside I scream and scream and scream,

There’s no one there for me to hold,

To rest a while,

Just long enough for me to smile.